It’s interesting. In the past, not being able to rely on anyone has strengthened my faith. Finding out that I’m really bad at a lot of things has strengthened my faith. Studying science has strengthened my faith. Questionings my beliefs and the very point of my existence has strengthened my faith. Repetitive failing has somehow strengthened my faith. Loosing myself a little and becoming what I would have previously seen as a worse person has also strengthened my faith. Even in a moment when I didn’t care if I lived or died and my angry prayers were not answered the way I wanted, my faith grew still.
If all you believe in is yourself then all you will do is lie to yourself… to cover up how insignificant your chosen deity really is.
I’ve lost all faith in myself.
My faith in God can not be killed. It is impervious to any attack I can fathom because it is beyond myself. It is the only thing I can always be sure is real. It could be because nothing else has been tested as thoroughly
Profound truth from Louis C.K. about cellphones and humans—
I must not be Defeated
I can see myself falling into the ways of predecessors
Into things that are foreign to me and they are terrifying
The illusion of liberation seems to breed insanity
I feel that I am once again in an impossible position
I can’t handle it on my own and I know what I must do
The only reason I made it to 24 is by turning to my God
My life consists of large increments of struggle
Mixed with some passing satisfaction
I hold little value for anything anymore